Insecurities expose our false selves.
After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. 1 Kings 19:11
As an earthquake rocks the foundation, so insecurity causes us to doubt who we are.
When I’m alone and still, fighting through the worries and staying in a place of silence, insecurities shake my sense of self.
“Who are you to…?”
“They won’t listen to you if…”
“Why do you think that will work?”
“Do you even hear from God, or is this just your imagination?”
After worry comes insecurity. It makes me doubt myself and whether this stillness thing is worth it. I tend to fall into old thought patterns about staying conservative, playing it safer, not making waves, tapering my faith… But the real me is the childlike voice within who takes God at his word and believes he can change the world.
That is, when I stay in stillness and fight through the worry and insecurity.