Order is better, but even chaos has a lesson.
“Embrace the glorious mess that you are.” —Elizabeth Gilbert
Our house has been in a state of chaos because of a small remodel project. We bought a home that needed a few immediate repairs, and the process is no joke. The dust, delays, and disorder are exciting but challenging.
A year ago, this process would have been more difficult for me. I need order to make me feel efficient, effective, and that I’m unhindered in my progress and goals. But this month, order is not something I have. Yet chaos is teaching me a lesson.
My craving for order can be compensation for a sense of inner angst. My discomfort is not license to be frustrated, but an invitation to do more interior digging.
What if I can get to the place where I am at peace, even in external chaos? I’m practicing by telling the mess that it’s okay for today. Then I’m sitting for longer periods of time, in prayer and meditation, inviting God to speak to me and draw out my inner angst. It’s working.
Also, we’ll get back to order, eventually. After chaos has done a good work for me.